Do you ever find that when you are anxious about one thing, all of a sudden a hundred more things pop into your head? Funny how when I give Satan a crack he opens the whole door.
That’s where I am today…our ultrasound is this evening, and the nervous excitement is getting stronger! The normal excitement of finally seeing our little one is overwhelming – I am such a visual person, that I can hardly wait to see him/her! Then this excitement turns into anxiety…and my morning conversation to myself went something like this:
What if something is wrong – you know, 10 arms or 32 toes …what if we ARE having twins? I would have to quit my job, but how will we afford to live?? We HAVE to sell our house…but we don’t want to lower the price any more! What about insurance if I have to quit?? The church is really struggling right now, and can’t pay insurance…yikes, what are we going to do about the church? How can we make it grow? We really need younger couples…but they aren’t going to come without some already there...could we get one or two couple to commit to the mission of the church and stick it out with us and build from there??? But we aren’t going to get younger couples with the songs we sing…I like hymns, but WOW, it’s all we sing…we need a song leader that is good at balancing…but we don’t have any song leaders in our church…and then we would need a piano player that plays contemporary songs too…Yikes - we are going to cause the church to split…we don’t want to necessarily boot the current people out, but we have to compromise and CHANGE in order to grow…and what about…
Sigh…and God says…SLOW DOWN…remember what you have said to Me in the past…you said you trusted Me…I have taken care of you in the past, what makes you think I will leave you now? I am not going to give you more than you can handle!
Sigh…you are right as always, God…I can’t get carried away - I just have to trust. Help me to not worry about things I can’t control.
(Answer to prayer already…we have an offer on our house…the email JUST came from our realtor!!! We will see hopefully sometime today if it is one we can accept…I pray it is!)
6 years ago
5 comments:
I personally can't wait for you to post the results of your ultrasound! God will take care of everything!!
I wish I would have known more of these thoughts and worries about your church, cause now I will definitely put your family and your church family in our prayers!! I bet it is hard to know how much to change and what direction to take in a church without offending people!!
Those recent picture of Titus are just adorable and funny!!! Your captions fit his facial expressions perfectly!! I will be praying for you today!!
Have fun at the ultrasound tonight! God has formed your baby, and He's an expert.
I hope this buyer is the one!!
PS - Caleb gives an in-utero hello to your baby.
Praying that everything will go fine!
Let us know! :)
Congratulations, Michelle and Stephen! I am sure you will love having a girl. I am so excited for you! God bless you both!
Your entry on anxious really spoke to me when I needed it.
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