Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Waiting

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

I am having a hard time waiting on God right now. I am losing heart, and I need to be strong and wait - PEACEFULLY.

My heart desperately longs to be at home. I hate our debt and I want to snap my fingers and it to go away so that I can be at home instead of working full time. But we got into debt, and now I need to be patient, work, and wait as we slowly get out of debt.

I am losing heart though. So many days I struggle to make it through the day because even though I love the people I work with, I don't like the work I do for my job. It is boring, even on days when I have a lot to do. I am gone 50 hours a week with driving and lunch hours. I hate missing out on my family and having to work some more when I get home because there is no other time to get chores done. I hate missing out on church things, things with the kids, and just all around family time. I find myself more and more frequently getting depressed and wore out, and more and more discouraged and hopeless. I am tiring quickly at the fast pace of life right now and my heart is crying out for simplicity.

But this verse encouraged me today.

Take heart and wait.

Easier said than done...but God is bigger than anything in my life, and He WILL sustain me and give me the strength I need.

3 comments:

Meghan said...

I can relate. I love my job and I do not desire to be home full time but I do want to have our debt paid off. I am working on having faith that God will continue to provide as things change with Bill's job.

Michelle M. said...

I'm sorry that you are struggling, Michelle. I pray that things will improve for you in the future. I struggle with being patient and waiting as well. I know that even though you aren't with your children all day, you make the best of the time that you do have with them. They are blessed!

Gene and Annie said...

I'm praying for you Michelle, I know it's hard to wait! I pray that the Lord provides in miraclous ways and that you will be able to pay off that debt more quicly then you think!! He knows your hearts desire!